I have always been jealous of people who are ambidextrous. How sweet is it that they have the ability to do and make things with their right AND left hand?! Just a thought I will return to later...
So this week, for my Diverse and Exceptional Learner class, I was given the task of interviewing five people about what white privilege means to them. Thinking that my family members would all provide deep and intellectual answers that would be on the same track as my own thoughts about race and privilege, I made the wonderful mistake of interviewing them. Why a wonderful mistake? Well the mistake comes in because they pretty much gave me answers that were entirely the opposite to the ones I was looking for: instead of being insightful, their answers were mostly filled with ignorance and colorblindness. But why wonderful? Allan Johnson notes that acknowledgement of privilege is one of the most important steps in beginning to unravel negative powers and oppressions. By conducting those interviews with my family, I realized that I have acknowledged, to some degree, my privilege as a white person. I am no longer colorblind, which goes against everything I was ever taught about growing up when everyone was "equal". But I actually prefer my non-colorblinded world right now: it has completely stretched my mind and caused me to think about issues that I had never acknowledged. As a result of my interviews, I recognize that I don't believe "white privilege is an archaic phrase that isn't relevant in 2009," as my mother said. I don't believe that "White privilege is something used as an excuse for some people of minority groups to not be motivated to be successful," as one family member put it. I don't believe the prediction that "The 2010 decade will be the decade of 'black privilege' because they have a ten times better shot of being hired in D.C. being black," as the 26 year old radically republican and conservative lawyer brother claimed. Instead, I believe "white privilege" is very much like being right handed, a metaphor from Bill and Otter, a gay couple from Decorah: not being forced to think about how you are 'different' or wonder if why the reason you are being treated a certain way is because of your "difference".
So I know you are sitting there thinking, "How in the world does 'white privilege' have anything to do with women and gender studies?" It has everything to do with it. By understanding myself as a young woman and therefore as a member of a group that has been oppressed throughout history, and being passionate about looking and acting for change, I can better understand and identify with people oppressed by other factors, such as race. I can better understand their feelings, their struggles, their passion, and their vision. In other words, in this aspect of my life, I get to be ambidextrous. I get to make things better and create things out of my right-handed privilege and my left-handed way in which I am oppressed.
But where do I, where do WE, go from here? A truth that I really like thinking about comes through a quote of Henry Adams: "A teacher affects eternity: they can never tell where their influence will stop." Why do I know this is truth? I have witness and experienced it. I bet any of you can look at why you are sitting in a women and gender studies classroom and attribute that reason to a variety of people in your past that have influenced you for the better. As people, we are truly like ripples, like Kim suggested. We have the ability to start something, or fight for something, and be comforted by the fact that, even though we might be unaware of it, we are influencing people. And like my favorite stanza from the last poem reads,
"Somebody may stop my voice from singing
But the song lives on and on.
You can't kill the spirit
It's like a mountain,
Old and Strong; it lives on and on."
"Being mountain. Being ambidextrous. Creating Ripples" is my artwork for the week.